Listern bud if this game gets to you that much dont play it bro!, at the end of the day your not actually winning anything but your own pride!, you need to ask yourself who in your life really cares or knows about you playing a game online?, the answer will probably be no!, so forget about it and find another game you enjoy playing!, or move on!, dont spend money, or put that much effort into it!, if you where to read many posts on here you will see many managers venting simular frustrations so your not the only one!, dont take it to heart and get over it!, if you cant its time to cut your losses.