I cannot explain it, I just seem to have lost my desire. My analogy of building a sandcastle in front of an incoming tide sums up how I feel: I spend a lot of time and effort building a nice castle, to have in inevitably washed away, forcing me to do it all again. Or if you prefer, I am starting to feel like Sisyphus, forever rolling that rock up the hill only to have it roll back down for me to start again.

I am not sure what is missing, but something fundamental is wrong. I know part of how I'm feeling is I feel I am spending too much time earning reds/blues/greens, and that is time I now feel I want to spend with my kids/wife. Football is also starting up here this week and some of my attention is going to turn to my beloved Seattle Seahawks. My work situation is also pretty abusive right now, and forced overtime is really cutting into my free/family time.

In short, I think I found what I was looking for in this game, but it feels like a good time for me to move on to other things